you know, life, at the moment, really stinks. I can’t bring myself to do any of the stuff i’ve to do, & don’t know if it’s because i’m sick, even though i’m getting better! or if it’s because i’m just headsick. yeah, I am. i’m headsick. I could lie on the floor for 42598063250 hours. someone to talk to would be great, but I don’t know if I could bring myself to talk. just want to kill everyone around me & hate them. not that I hate them. most of them. no one talking to me would be nice.

I saw Matrix Reloaded, & thought it a waste of time. didn’t think it bad, & didn’t dislike it, just thought it a waste. sushi for lunch. quite used to being bad, so I expect it every day. what a miser! Bone Collector is on tonight but since i’d rather not torture myself by staying conscious I think i’ll tape it & go to bed & watch it tomorrow.