directionless

hurt you and made you cry.
I dreamt that, one by one, all the things i’ve been now&then worried about the past month or so resolved themselves. my divorce, Wayne’s gradual paralysis, my
terrible
..
hmm.
my general, overall discontent has been insiduously ballooning .. dilating like a black eye swelling closed
anyway, I woke up and didn’t realise it’d all only been dreamt until around an hour later.

so no matter what i’m doing I feel directionless. 8 hours of work, 8 hours of play, 8 hours of sleep.
I cut ampersands out of newspaper headlines. in 6th grade my inner labia grew, and I, rather horrified, considered cutting them off.