got back the results for the personality exam for which I never studied. 3% above the mean.
but you can tell by the way i didn’t specify that i’m not happy with it.
yesterday was Nia’s birthday.
she’d told me to come over at 6pm.
class finished at 1pm, so I went to a computer lab to start my stats report, since i’d so much time. after what felt like an hour or so, I looked at the clock.. and noticed it’d been nearly four! hours. I barely had time to go home, change, and get to Nia’s on time. actually I didn’t, I was late.
we went to Montezumas for dinner.. I think there were around 10 of us. I had three drinks, spent most of it wishing I wasn’t there. Nia was already plastered by the time we got back to her place, and wanted to go out. ee. I wanted to go home. Adraia wanted to go to bed, so we cast each other sympathetic glances every now and then. I had two more drinks but didn’t feel like drinking so they had no effect. a boy i’d never met before taught me how to play a card game I can’t remember the name of and can’t remember how to play. I didn’t like this boy, he was decidedly sleazy.
in the bathroom a girl i’d also never met before said, “do you like him?”
I said no.
she said, “I think he likes you. do you know how old he is?”
I said no. she smirked. later I understood, as she made several cutting remarks about his past questionable relationships with much younger girls. she was also sure to tell everyone his age (twenty-eight!), which he seemed to find very annoying. but anyway. i’d started avoiding him by then, as quite a few times he touched me inappropriately. lol. that’s such a hilarious thing to say! well in the 24hour pancake cafe I know he refrained from sitting until I did so he could sit next to me. especially when twice I felt his hand on my knee. I kicked him in the shin both times and he removed it.
later, in the casino, I made a frightful error. I was standing next to Nia near the bar, watching the band, when a very tall boy swaggered up to us with what I gathered was an attempted disarming grin but what nerves turned into an gawky grimace. he didn’t even say anything, just stood there, directly in our line of vision, bouncing his eyes between us with a beer in his hand. I pointedly rolled my eyes and walked away, finding Stan (whom I felt quite comfortable with as his face was so smile creased) and standing with him. unfortunately he’d been standing with Sleazy, who somehow figured that i’d come to stand with him, that I was pretending he was my partner, for crying out loud, in order to rebuff the eye-bouncer (as if my obvious snub hadn’t been rebuffal enough). everyone was laughing at it, you see, crying “what a classic!” and the like, and Sleazy, absolutely guffawing in delight, put his arm around me. I made some exclamation of disgust and went back to Nia (the eye-bouncer had left in humiliated shame directly after the rebuffal). too late! he got it into his head I simply couldn’t resist him, or something.
around 3am Stan finally drove us home. Nia’d told me at the beginning of the night to sleep on the couch, which was fine, as i’d done so a few times. fine, that is, until I found out that Sleazy would be sleeping directly under the couch on a mattress. I had several simultaneous heart attacks upon learning this, and several more when he smiled at me after informing me.
I immediately located Nia and told her i’d be taking a taxi home. Nia, being astonishingly drunk, burst into heart-hurt tears. GOD. I HATE drunk people. “okokok!” I cried. “bus in the morning, then! I love buses in the morning!”
after everyone else had left, and she and Sandy had locked their doors, we were left sitting on the couch.
he said, “I couldn’t possibly sleep right now.”
I said, “me, neither,” got up and sat outside until I was sure he was asleep. I came back in and sat on the couch for 465906 hours.. actually I must’ve slept because at 6am I noticed I was lying down.
Adraia, that traitor, drove me halfway home at 7am on her way to class.
traitor because i’d initially said, after the card game and such, “allllllllright, i’ll go out if you do,” since neither of us really wanted to but Nia would’ve burst into heart-hurt tears if we hadn’t, and she agreed. she came with us to the bus station, then turned around and said, “actually, I think I am too tired after all. i’m going home. have funn!”
she told me to come over on Friday and go out with her and Enna. I said I would, but! you know how last time I said i’d never go out again? well I still mean it.. I only did this time ’cause it was a birthday. AND IT’S ONLY STRENGTHENED MY RESOLVE.