better than

it’s mornings, lying abed waiting to fully awake, that’re the worst.. it’s the only time I think. going to sleep is no problem, I ensure i’m so tired by then it takes no time at all.

actually I wrote that last night. today I felt myself again, even lying abed amorning. ’cause I didn’t. I got up and cleaned for the first time all week. gosh! was it bad. the whole unit littered with clothes & litter shed whilst walking about, unable to even put them in their respective bins.
I doubt i’m making sense. i’m pretty tired.
and booked a flight to Cairns on the 25th.
and got my period.

i’m filled with pleasant warmth; it’s looking ahead, rather than back.