I did something today that made me quite anxious. Anxiety is not something I feel very often but it is something many people I’ve been talking to recently suffer from.. so for empathy’s sake I thought I’d take careful note of what it was like.
- The most immediate sensation was a trembling tenseness in my stomach and chest, a buzzing and a tightness. Distinctly uncomfortable.
- A fuzziness in my head, which gave my vision a kind of noisy, blurry quality also, approaching inward from the edges.
- Clammy hands, increased heart-rate and body temperature, and a tension in my muscles, especially my shoulders and arms.
- Decreased fine motor control, in that I had far more clumsy than usual hand and finger movements.
Sarah messaged me today asking if I was okay. I replied “DID MUMM TELL YOU I WAS DEPRESSED UGH.” I knew she’d worry. I’m not depressed!