Begin the long weekend.
Brenton went away on a four day camping trip for boys only, which I don’t really get. I figure it’s so they can can escape their boring, hideous girlfriends, swear and make sexist jokes all day, if only for a short while, before coming back to gloomy old reality where there are women whom they assume have completely different values and morals which they hear in every word as a nagging, shrewish shriek or something.
But it gives me the opportunity to see friends who don’t wish to be a third wheel. What, I have relationships outside my relationship? Oh, yeah…
I spent some time with Pallas, spending most of my talk-time on my recent slump, and how it is not depression. This sounds like denial, but I simply know it isn’t.. it doesn’t even closely fit the criteria. I’m almost completely sure it’s a physical ailment; hormonal, or something, the same thing that comes and goes, always. Anyway. Pallas spent her talk-time on her anxiety and how it is certainly anxiety. But she is wonderful.
Drove up to Shorncliffe for lunch and staring sucker-eyed at everything and getting hopelessly lost, not always due to the road-closures for parades and their accompanying crowds of stroller pushing, toddler-hand-holding gawkers. I felt better on the way back.
As I was arriving home mumm called, and kept asking me what was wrong, so I told her I’ve been down, but now I worry she’ll worry more than is necessary.. but why worry.
Reformatted the c-drive on my desktop and reinstalled Windows, which took me all afternoon and is still not done… but I don’t know why I put it off so long. It was really not such the gigantic hassle I feared.
Then Storm came around to catch up and watch Cloud Atlas. It was good hanging out with her. We arranged to go to the beach on Sunday. Hooray, the beach, someone finally wants to go! I so rarely want to go to the beach, like what, once every two years? but it still seems to be far more often than all the people who refuse to go with me. So I am excited.
Today started off in the dankest of holes, slyly sneaked me up and down and roundabout, then gradually continued up and up, and now I am okay.